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Do you have any change?

Sitting on the metro this morning on my way to work, I couldn't help but feel like cattle being shipped off to the slaughter house, living out my last moments before I move on to bigger and better things, such as a Big Mac or Whopper. Looking around and just seeing how depressed everyone is just sucks the life outta me. Every morning it's the same people with the same kill-me-now expressions on their faces, and I'm sure I give off the same impression.

I'm so tired of routine. So tired of the rinse, lather, repeat cycle my life has taken on. I need a change, something new, something exciting, anything! A trip, I wanna take a trip. Maybe a weekend, maybe a week, maybe a month. I need out. I want to see things in my city that I haven't before. I want to do things that scare me. And the list goes on.

Maybe I'm thinking this way because another year is coming to an end, and a new year always brings that sense of change, that sense of starting over. Maybe it's because this past year was one of the toughest I have ever had. I've dealt with death, borderline poverty, and a number of other things I don't want to bore anyone with.

But over the last couple of weeks I've felt the tables turning and I am very very excited to see what 2009 will bring.

And here's to all those sad souls on the metro, I heard this playing at the end of Donnie Darko and thought maybe it could become your anthem.

All around me are familiar faces

Worn out places, worn out faces

Bright and early for their daily races

Going nowhere, going nowhere

Their tears are filling up their glasses

No expression, no expression

Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow

No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kinda funny

I find it kinda sad

The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had

I find it hard to tell you

I find it hard to take

When people run in circles It's a very, very mad world, mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good

Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday

Made to feel the way that every child should

Sit and listen, sit and listen

Went to school and I was very nervous

No one knew me, no one knew me

Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson

Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kinda funny

I find it kinda sad

The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had

I find it hard to tell you

I find it hard to take

When people run in circles it's a very, very mad world ... world

Enlarge your world

Mad world